give up

Two days ago, I wrote an e-mail for a man who I like. He's a only person I'm appreciate here after my last relationship with my ex. However, nothing can be perfect and totally satisfied in this world. Sometimes we just need to learn how to grow up by giving up.

I gave up him, because he has got a girl friend, though.

But I dun regret......

Although it's the first time that I met a man who has the same hobby as mine. Both of us love the Chinese literature as well as love writing poem. I always wish I can fall in love with a romantic man and receive his love poem every nite....

YYI'm still waiting it by my innocent heart~YY

Oh.....god

Last nite, I was about studin' in the room. However, there was a damn female "BIG BIG" CocaRoaches flyin' over my forehead suddently....oh, god~ how...could she doin' this for me? (@@~) she yet brings her family n travelling around my room even happily showing them all off! it's unforgetable. I was of course screaming and running away from my chair, I was sure I almost stop takin' breath then. Could I just let it go? I was kinda thinkin' of givin them a lift to the hell....of course...Therefore, I took both vaccum n bug spray, runnin' back to my room but they suddently disappeared. where were them? I was tryin' hard to force them appear on my sight again. I was randomly using vaccum n loudly yellin': get out!!! u guys!!!!5 minutes later, that damn family finally appeared on a part of my room, the top of my descorate box. Oh...my god. They were coming out from the box where i put all of my jeans....What a disguesting!!!!!!@@~I really dun wanna wash all of my jeans later lah!! ohohohohohooh!!!!nonono~~there are about 30 jeans there...damn.I really couldn't stand killing them asap! I throwed that box away outside my door and then they were appearing. I used one of my shoe to give them a big surprising. They were of course all died by that surprising and left some kinda white dead body on the floor for me.....well done! I start breathing again.It was about 12:30 am then, everybody had gone to bed..... However, I couldn't go to sleep because I got to wash that 30 jeans all night long......................................god...

2006 Happy New Year

Y
YY
YYY
YYYY
YYYYY
YYYYYY
YYYYYYY
YYYYYYYY
YYYYYYYYY
It's 2006 now, where did you celebrate on the last New Year Eve, my dear friends?About me, I went to Darling harbour for watching the fireworks with two of my friends at first and then went to Karaoke after that. Originally, I didn't really want to past the New Year Eve because of my moody, however i thought if I didn't go out that i may be regret in the future. After all, people need to throw up old year for facing the new year, isn't? Therefore, I wish you all and me have a fabulous year!

##~Let' us share our lucky and wonderful dreaming at nite peacefully~~##

\"""My Silly but Sweet childhooD""""/ PART1

Recently, I feel a bit blue....I do miss my innocent childhood. I remember when i was a little girl, I used to dream of being a pianist. I had been playing piano since I was 6. However, I didn't continue it n even found other hobbies after 15 years-old. It was hang out with my female friends. We girls liked chatting and spending our time in outside after school and the weekend. We used to talk some useless stuff such as "who's your favourite boy in school? ""what kinda music you listen to evey day?" or How can you look like so amazing? where did u get this stuff ?" that sort of bullshit...

I have forgot to continue playing my piano and always went to coffee shop for meeting my friends then. my god.

After 17 years-old, most of my female friends started being girly as much as they can but I started riding motorcycle n I knew all of the fabulous n great motorcycle shops in order to alter the speed of my motorcycle. I remember I sometimes had motor competition with men from the mountain path to the city road. Oh..how could I dare to did this crazy thing with a lot of men? but I knew I was never scared n got some men friends by it, though.

When I was 18, I became a bit more mature than before. Luckily, I was thinking of changing the music instrument I used to play. I started playing guiter....the reason was I wanted to find a way to relax myself when I feel really moody n then I can play it outside on the street. Maybe I can earn some money I thought....haha. but, I didn't continue it becuase I made strings breaken after four months... (continue....)

ddmmmdddmmmdddmmmdddmmmdddmmmdddmmmddd

~~~My silly but Sweet childhooD~~~PART2

19 years-old... what sort of stuff u guys used to be crazy about? I knew I dreamt of being a famous person n then I can go around the world without worrying about the money. But at first, I knew I got to get my educational certificate. I went to University for one year but finally I decided to skip it. Because I wasn't interested in my school work....I just a kinda girl who always think of making itself prettier but have an damn simple brain such as a beautiful vase. Although I always remember to told myself that I got to start some significant stuff n dun make my parents get angry with me....but there were too many things I concetrated at the same time. Therefore, there was nothing successful I have done before I came to Australia.
Came to Australia is a turning point in my life. In here, I just started to know what sort of person myself is, I met the guy who I really loved n I know what else I can learn from friends. I opened my little world.
Now I'm not easy to think of negative thing. coz' there's nothing can swing my heart without the fact. I used to be afraid of catching what I really want, but now I dare to organize a plan n go for it~~
where is your happiness?
if u dare to do what u want without doubting...trust me, u will find it!llll

/\/\/\/\/Under the Rock's SuN/\/\/\/\/

)))) ___ ))))

(((( ___ ))))

As usual, it was a brilliant beautiful sunshine in the Saturday afternoon, in lovely Sydney. I walked along the George Street and looked at strangers walk right against my face in the opposite direction and then pass my shoulder. The feeling was a bit different from the white and peaceful dream I had last night, I felt there were many grey cool eyes that watched me deeply and desired to know which part of the world I come from. I still walked forward my way without doubting. The only thing I expected is the place where waits for my coming. Her name is unique and even I have known it from long time ago.

After passing the circular quay train station, then I arrived at the destination ~ The Rocks. Oh, how bright sunshine is! I just can not stand to slightly shout and take camera in order to catch that little joyful which around my mind. As a real gypsy woman, I imaged myself as a part of gypsy who seeks a fresh soul by every voyage. I enjoy being alone and exploring any place I dream of. I knew I would be regret if I was not there at the moment when I saw there were various little lovely Italian restaurants and exotic shops in The Rocks. The colour of all building design deep white, everyone there yet looked happily and warmly. Their eyes are shinning while they were talking; their shadows become gold colour under The Rock's sun. Like the bed story, many couples sweetly hold their hands and whisper. I breathed and even was afraid of missing this sweet scene. The sunshine was still so bright and also forced me into the atmosphere.

Unfinished, I found the small gorgeous flea market which appears on the end of the George Street. I can not close my eyes because of those stunning painting and bonny handmade accessories. I stayed alone under the tree after a little shopping. What a graceful photograph I got, I thought. This lovely thing from one of the booth which was taken in the Malabar pool by a famous Australian photographer.

Afterwards, a lovely woman who was singing and dancing in the public avenue. I watched her and followed her voices and steps. She moved next to me and asked me to sing with her from my heart. If it is to sing my feeling for The Rocks, I would really love to. Since I have been living in the city until that moment, at the first time I was so touched Australian's passion. The Rocks is such a amazing place I have never been. After spending all afternoon there, I decided to return. As usual, it was suppose to full of terrible noise on the George Street. However, everything was yet special silent that night on my way home. Maybe there still a lot of people walked around but I felt peaceful after The Rock's sun.

Happy Team Work!! "CrePe JOb"

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-==-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=

~~~Salmon n Straberry kisses crepe!!!

-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-

It's the last semester now, everybody is gonna finish all stuff in Insearch, though.
This time, I'm really happy 2 be cutie cecilia, tender nitha, jazzy dyan n girly lily's team member. We crazily have been eating a lot of junk food n also doin some boring tasks together but exactly have fun in our every meeting~~wahaha.

YY( girls..I'm still not so sure that do I like crepe or not? but I'm totally sure I love salad! Let's grab that yummy V salad in our "Toss n Turn" again at next weekend ba!-.- )YYAlthough I always laugh at Miss D( dyan sister), but why she yet looks like much happier than me?...hahaha. gooooooood =,,,=

D sister, u r worth it~~YYYY

I'm here to wish our crepe team n NEO'21 public relation can get excellent marks finally n everybody go 2 UTS or other good Uni....extra....get a nice partner!!!hahahha~~~

p.s plez dun force me to try any crepe again after this!! thankz @@~
xxx

Rely on

54545454545443434434347676767676767
bvbvbvbvbvbvbvbbvbvbvbbvbvbvbvbvbvb

Sometimes, I kinda feeling sick n dun know how can I settle myself down here. No doubt, Sydney is exactly a lovely place for living if you luckily find a gorgeous n nice partner who can share all the happiness with u . I realize I might too independent n strong for being a girl friend as well as too crazy n naughty for being a woman....wow. Sometimes i would think of what else to define myself, do I need to ask for a help by somebody else??? is that necessary??? Honestly, I hate crying n thinking of bad thing once I get setback. After being away from my home, I always try to cheer myself up n say all trouble r not enough to remind. I know there's nobody can give me hand if I dun rely on myself at first. Although I used to be afraid of being alone at nite sometimes, but I've been trying to be optimestic as much as I can. "Say good Bye to my Shadow n loneliness"
I'm single, I'm fabulous...I know now I dare to face all challenge I'll meet in the future. If I need somebody else to define myself; If I was afraid of looking at myself, I'm sure I'll be a loser in every campaign on the life road. Courage n Confience is all We need~~~ Bravo!

life is short

why do we still taste the pain?

If pain can let you grow up

just to fly in the sky

stay away the warm cage

nbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnbnN

767676767676767676767676767676767!

u know?

=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=.=

I: Honey...
A: What?
I: u know I'm so digging on u?
A: yeah..i really do, baby

I: If I could deeply love you always and forever,
I hope I could be with you till I'm dead.....

"I used whole week for avoid thinking of you
But I couldn't slept those days
coz' you've been inside my soul...

I used a book for writting down all your flaws
But I found the book just became a love novel
Coz' I know I've been in the emotional hell...

please come back n stay with me,
as soon as you can
I will get ready to tell you
how I love you more than I give......" =d=d=d=d=d=d=d=d=d=d=d=d=d=d=d=d=